Yeah Im in the exact same situation. Both of us never considered the other an option he was married and I was dating someone. I just don't know what to do. I didn't want it to end, ever. We are at the point where we fight all the time and she says she wants space. I don't know how I made it home that night. I have tried distancing myself from her, but then she thinks I am ignoring her and being a bad friend.
I think she is but I don't know. It was just me and her. The emotional bond we developed was intense, and I realized he and I shared so much more than most friends ever do. What's best is he's not even gay,. Each day, I waited anxiously until he came home from work.
And I hated myself for thinking of guys in a gay way. I needed to show you, and I needed you to show me how you felt. I insisted on staying with Matt's dad once a week so that Matt could run errands without having to drag his dad along. He is now dating one of my old college friends Fast forward 2 years. He probably already suspects that, he could even suspect that you have feelings for him. Well, it was all in my head. I said hi and sat next to them with Xavier the guy I like.
But that thought started creeping into my mind whenever he was away. This is of course not a valid disease vector. I'm trying to be as supportive as I can, and want to be friends as long as we live. The irony was not lost on me. Remember: you can't date a man who doesn't know that you are attracted to men. We were in a spooning position, and I could feel his dick pressed up against me. I woke up and looked at him, but he was asleep.
I pulled away from Serena. It is simply an unfortunate situation without fault. It's understandable though if your to scared to ruin the relationship you already have. You might have saved my life. Makes no sense not to.
His male friends always have a certain to them, that his female friends don't because he's gay. If things go badly, move on. Politically themed posts are not allowed. Love is real, far more so than any religion, and even in the billion to one reality defying odds that god does exist, and it's the christian god, I can't see that god punishing a person for falling in love. Maybe you could hint at liking guys as well as girls or just guys i dunno. Ive liked other people but never like i love him I only told him im probably like 80% gay about a year ago, but were so much closer now.
That maybe can explain why he does such gay things but still says he's a homophobic. The term presumes that you are providing information that you believe other people in your life are not aware of, and for this subreddit is associated with an admission of a moral or legal wrong. I did everything to make him become my friend. I was best man at his wedding, I dunno, if hes happy kissing you he must be really comfortable with you. Just because he apparently thought that I was? The conversations are all paraphrased because I couldn't always remember the exact words, and the text is a little dramatized because it's easier for me to write that way, but everything happened just the way it's written. The mods check it frequently and will take suggestions into consideration. Yeah I get where you are coming from.
I'm on a quest to digest as much information on the the topic as I can by finding books and writings by queer christians and queer voices in general - so hopefully someday I can actually explain my newfound convictions but for now I say that what you've described in your story is absolutely beautiful and dripping with holy love. The way things are going, it seems like if these feelings aren't mutual you will be losing a best friend anyways because I know it is really tough to be around someone who doesn't feel the same way. I just want to romance this guy so beautifully,kiss the living daylight out of him. Keeping something like this bottled up inside fucking hurts. He tells me he is homophobic and fully denies being gay.